three is almost always a crowd when there's more than one gender involved *grins*
femme asked "would i be marrying the person i'll be dating?" struck me in a moment of surprise. for marriage never came across my mind in any ways -yet-
of course unless if you count my dream wedding dresses and flower bouquets as part of the thoughts of marriage, i had never seriously consider that issue at this stage of my life. but when it did came to me in dreams, i always wake in cold sweats
-married to that one guy, waking to him everyday, cut off from all the other hunks there is, and then there's kids, then the in-laws......-
that even marriage in dreams are nightmare, what more here in Life? shites. i have commitment issues.
but let's rationalize...
I AM ONLY 21!!!
true would be the fact that all the people in the world have many views on love, hate and marriage. i can get in and out of crushes/hatred/ and the almost love..... like it never hurt, like it was never there. i dont know what to make of it. some may think im living on lie and pretence; and underneath that facade of happiness, there's a time of loneliness. while i myself would rather grab someone to cry on, i realize there's really no need for so.
what am i to cry about? the crush who never knew? the feelings you thought were true? the future you want to be?
i believe i am more selfish than that to cry over anything but myself. i dont feel sorry for endearing people in secret. neither do i feel sorry when they found themselves someone to love.
so, there's really no need to wet a shoulder *heh*
but for others, the first cut can hurt till the tears trail blood. we cant call them a fool in love for i know (despite the lack of on hand experience) that our devoted emotions can change even the steeliest mindset.
why and how? perhaps i'll answer that after i get a taste of one *laughs*
for now, i'll just sit and stare at the passing moment, waiting who's gonna stop for me (or not)
femme said im too independent of mind that i intimidate.
*grins*
what am i to cry about? the crush who never knew? the feelings you thought were true? the future you want to be?
i believe i am more selfish than that to cry over anything but myself. i dont feel sorry for endearing people in secret. neither do i feel sorry when they found themselves someone to love.
so, there's really no need to wet a shoulder *heh*
but for others, the first cut can hurt till the tears trail blood. we cant call them a fool in love for i know (despite the lack of on hand experience) that our devoted emotions can change even the steeliest mindset.
why and how? perhaps i'll answer that after i get a taste of one *laughs*
for now, i'll just sit and stare at the passing moment, waiting who's gonna stop for me (or not)
femme said im too independent of mind that i intimidate.
*grins*
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nope, it's not the specs. don't get married! get hitched first, then get married, after he becomes a millionaire of course:) (or she, lol)
xenac said...
March 11, 2008 at 7:29 AM
def aft he's rich! im just as smart as you ya know... *grins*
-not the specs then what? the hair?-
muse said...
March 11, 2008 at 8:55 PM