my wisdom tooth had finally erupted, both of them actually. and then one fine morning while brushing me teeth, i noticed my left front incisor is disaligned from its normal perfect alignment.
"..........................." ZOMGWTF!
*yes, i am a bit anal of my teeth's alignment because im obssessed with perfect symmetry of my alignment which is among the very few traits i am actually proud of*
so yeah, i made a big hoo ha about it and even made my mom set a dental appointment all the way back in taiping. its just a consultation that i need cause my dad pooh-ed at me, saying that its just a TEENY bit of disalignment which is not even obvious to the naked eye.
nevertheless, i am very excited for my first doctor visit! only to learn that the crrokedness cannot be repaired, as it doesnt have anything to do with my wisdom tooth eruption, rather its my gum/lips retraction that is pulling in my teeth; hence the disalignment. and its called maturation.
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sometimes i wonder how the body works. it is as if its making you less attractive as you age. rotfl! just a random thought. i shall stop whining here before i become a blonde.
p.s. scaling of your teeth hurts and bleed like a bitch! i swear, even the dentist was taken aback when i kept bleeding and bleeding and bleeding. even my cheeks were splattered with droplets of blood. and no one bother telling me i have bloodstains. *no wonder the receptionist and other patients stared at me as i leave*
hmmmms.. owh well, considering there's nothing i can do about it, time for some ice-cream. gotta flush that metallic taste off my mouth (=
sugarcoated with caramel and blinded with obsession. taste me
0 comments Posted by muse at Thursday, August 28, 2008
how can not pour out my ultimate for them? after so much they love and considerations and sweet praises they had potrayed and spilled?
here, lemme reason out why i heart them so...
1. they live dripping with self pride and confidence. its never their fault the world fall apart. they were just late a lil' bit. i mean, they have a life to live and moments to enjoy? life is short after all, we cant be that uptight (=
so, its all the environment's fault and the people who worked the environment. and that my dearies, is how you flick away blames with style.
2. it always amaze me how he can smile and crooned so smoothly his words while telling me "i dunno how these people all can be such hypocrites, liars, murderers and cheats.. why can't they just be people?"
zomg!!! his expression is so classic *faints with awesomeness!!*
3. and have you ever been in a situation where a theist will argue against atheism and agnostics; only, his arguments proposed are all so twistedly confused that its just babbled bullcrap *stare with glassy eyes*
cola : but why dont you believe in god? you mean you dont believe in a higher being? then i suppose you dont believe that we were created?
sarsi: no, i am a skeptic. i believe what i see and im more in on the scientific proof.
coca : but why? i believe in god. i believe he's in my parents and to me, they are my god. god to me is not some figure above. i believe god is my parents and i respect them and thats that..
sarsi: ??? isnt that agnostism?
cola : but imagine this, i mean, you dont know god exist, there haven't been proof to de-proof his existence. nor do i believe you would need to actually hear him proclaim his claim on you before you believe. if so, then where would you place faith?
sarsi: *lost in the merry-go-round*
coca : i mean, if you cant trust in god just cause you cant see him, you wouldnt have faith anymore.
sarsi: ........... *so what does that have to do with my disbelief in god and religion again?*
4. to know that some of them are sensitive is another plus point to love them further. at least you know they arent all that cold hearted. i mean, some actually express themselves via msn status. yesh people, you should let out your frustrations just like him, no matter how trivial the matter, and no matter who at fault. ranting is freedom of expressions. *clap hands*
but i suggest you follow this method only if you know the person the shoutout for
whom to intended for actually checks you out. no point if he/she never bother glancing at your status.
*it'll make you rather foolish or disgruntled or juvenile even (=*
and there are many more reasons why they are so so the adorable! *swoons* i cant get enough of them! i hope they last forever by my side to humor and entertain and make me happy *i am so happy!*
and all those hugs and smiles and pats they give me.. made my life goes round. without their touch, i wouldnt see the world and people the way they are now. just like a sunny day without the sun, just the way i like it.
thanks you all! *mwaks*
in your voices of soothe
i cried the tears
i smell the rain
my hands grappling the air
before in vain, you came.
before stepping past my time
can i be kissed and touched
just one more time.
there are those who are willing to go the distance for loved ones. this i witness aplenty recently. to shatter wits amongst the unknown, it is indeed a terrifying experience.
but to reach out for that grappling hands of a peaceful old man, and to feel his loneliness within, that is something i can never learn from a lecture or a text. as we go on about our visits, along with sher, i discovered many lil wonders from even a simple chat or dyeing hair or just a silent touch.
to give is not that hard. but to mean it and to be sincere, it isn't anything you can duplicate, even with the sweetest of words. not all sincerity and care is mouthed.
and for that day, Mr Koi made my day, even if he was asleep the entire time we were there, you made my day *smiles*
to det,
for me, the past 6 months have been a lesson, an experience, and a reflection. it wasnt easy for both you and I, but when you asked me how long does it takes to heal, did i not tell it won't be long soon?
and indeed, at 6 months.. you're back with the smile and the laughters. when you have seen the darkest of night, the first light the next morning will always be the brightest. so come what may tomorrow, i believe you will have even more strength to hold yourself together. (=
love ya!
stanzas from afar, this near they are to my heart.
0 comments Posted by muse at Sunday, August 24, 2008
Had we never loved sae blindly,
Never met—or never parted,
We had ne'er been broken hearted."
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed."
William Ernest Henley
and im having the vision of you
in the absence of a face in the absence of your presence
do you want to take this sit beside me?
the altruistic behaviour was a puzzle then to Darwin. yes, Darwin who proposed the theory of natural selection. he believes that altruism confers to almost negligible benefit and that evolution over millenia should had eliminate those genes that contributes to altruistic behaviour.
and here we are today, still being able to observe various altruism in many communities, not confining to the human species as per se.
here was what he had hypothesized. although altruism wasnt a favourable trait to be passed down, however, their existence proved beneficial and even necessary to certain individuals/species/community. henceforth, the beneficiary of altruism tends to preseve such altruistic individuals and therefore, the trait of altruistic behaviour just as well.
yes, its a i-hate-you-but-i-need-you kind of relationship. many other hypothesis was put forth. but mebbe another day over a cuppa coffee? *grins* plus, im not done with this book.
hereafter, is something easier on the eyes and brains. especially for det (= and dave too.. i think?
1kg of sweet&sour crab + 1kg of kamheong crab + fried tanghoon + butter prawns + oyster omelette
= this is the essesce of satisfaction and overdose. (eventhough the block nose cant taste much)
p.s: dont worry keanguan, we'll take you there sometime soon aight? *grins*
when he finally gets the hang of it...
cause this is how he looks like in the beginning of guitar hero. *muahahahhahah*
differences between a rocker and a stick?the rocker smiles and rock about the song and the stick just stand there like he's stoning (((= but this stick is good wei. damn! must learn how to kayu d...
azure, like lapis lazuli
onyx, in mesmerization of light
and the night can only go further.
me: zomg! i just wash you car!car: urmm, well... bird gotta poo. and i am the victim here
me: *grumbles*
car: what??? i cant bang that damn bird down can i considering imma car.
me: @_@
and yes, even in the midst of exam's eve, there's still time for some self-love. you dont have to agree with me. =p- ...the days get seriously sleepier
- ...and in the instance you sleep, sleep take over you that even if the roof shall fall, you shall not be awaken except when a vagrant's face pop up in your head in the attempt of snatching your bag
- ...dreams after dreams after dreams seems to make endless non-sense that it gets you thinking, "is it time for the shrink?"
- ...you can absolutely forget if you had eaten or not till suddenly you realize them fingers are trembling; then you know you havent
- ...reading your text becomes a head-pounding experience. you're trying to crunch all those figures and facts but it rebounds off you. and you're left staring at the same page for 3 hours
girl takes over sunway pyramid once more! less aggresively this time round. i love this woman, with all her quirkiness, which is in everytime you listen to, is refreshing.
just like the shower after a period of summer (=
I HATE TO HAVE YOU GO BACK!!!!!!!
but i guess i cant stop you from it. or mr. law is gonna sue me for bleaking her daughter's future
*grins*
owh well, next year is another year of missing. and i will see you soon again
these are the days where i spent 80% of my week in the morgue-cum-library. i dont know how i did it, but i survived nonetheless. and to actually be able to tell you i sorta enjoyed it, i believe that is even scarier than you can imaginejo actually goes, "are you sick?" i would like to think i am. considering i eventually fell sick. ahahhahahah!
i am nerd.
- clenching and unclenching of fist
- catching the mouthing of f***
- breathe in breathe out
- popping a balloon with that stare
*grins* yes, who wants a banana?monash got it specially for us and vini popped ze banana...
who wants to take a guess?
and all the shots taken cant get any sweeter and spicier when you have sugar and pepper in the pot
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dont they all say? we always want what we cant have? though sometimes its a stupid thing to do.
putting a foot out onto the edge of a cliff, ignoring the hands wanting to pull you away.
yes, we love to do stupid things once in a while.
every spur of the moment is best enjoyed chilled, like her mcflurry (=
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and at the end of the letter, every step and every sequences is like a...
just like my oh-so-corny bestie who send very-the-corny heartsie messaged all the away across the south china sea. *wahahhahahahah*
yeah babe, you know who you are. and this is for you
monday comes in a package of yummy shepherd's pie. compliments to sher's mom! (= but i didnt had it till the next day dinner. cause i was stuffed full by my guardian. *burps*
on top of that, they had durian for dessert. omfg.... i wonder how some people can just eat and eat and eat....
and somewhere down the week, i started using my new phone for camwhoring session with partner in crime (who demanded to have her face up ere) what a to-do... habits die hard. whatmore when there's someone there to tempt you *grins*
and.... i have been studying much more than my normal self (nerding lately in library) i have naichien and chienyew and thum as witness!!) ahahhahah. though i do NOT enjoy certain occasions when im studying. enough said.
a bad day's just another day. i like to move away rather than to linger on a bad patch. *dont we all?*
few more days later, some depressed-merajuk sakai set dinner somewhere in PJ.. of which i tend to get lost VERY easily. surprisingly, i didnt. *grins* i just got stucked in the jam. but it was ALL worth it cause i get to see jas in a freaking miniskirt and matching shoes n bag! LOL!
and the next day, shuan's down for round two of megasale. |= met up with su ann..just love tht woman. she sooo lovable! ahahhahha.. but some sakai merajuk again in midvalley.
"no more jas d..sniff.. i hate sanjay....sniff.."
awww.......
nevertheless, the weekends were awesome with my babe. she's the only one i can talk shit with and basically almost everything under the sun/roof/sky (= though they are many parts of you i still cant comprehend, im beginning to understand.
you're just not like everyone else. *grins*
what are the if's and not's when we hold our journey in our hands?
1 comments Posted by muse at Monday, August 04, 2008
there you are
in the glassy vivarium of segregation
of the old and new.
a glass between today and tomorrow
a look into the past and present
of what may become and what may not.
i walk around the glass enclosure of humans. ones who look just like me and you, but somewhat different in the inside.
how different you ask? i do not know. for when i chose to commemorate this dream, i had already begin to forget the pieces. i only managed to salvage this bit im putting down.
i stand on the side of technology, the dominant side and i peer through the piece of glass to a boy within, staring back at me. he, as i remembered vaguely, is held inside there for some reason; contamination?
he smiled beautifully with those eyes. that was the only thing i remember before my mind decided to construct this figure to pull him away from me and bat him savagely.
*note: im an advocate of peace, i do not enjoy bashing people in reality*
putting that aside, after such dreams, i almost always have notions of thoughts following that. and today i ponder about the many uncertainties of our everyday life.
almost everything is uncertain. imagine if your certain for everything, wont it be a bore? since events are such predictable to the point it'll bore you mad. if so the case, we can begin planning our retirement plan starting the age of 12? then, Mr Surprise and Ms Twisted-Events be outta job.
there is a reason why sometimes, spontaneity are such fun. because the more you think over a matter, the more flaws will surface. and by the time you are ready to decide, the initial enthusiasm is long gone, eroded by the pros and cons swirling within your overactive minds *grins*
so so so....... make use of the foolishness of youth to jump into the unknown! sometimes you fall, but sometimes you might reach the apples blossoms on the topmost branch? however we land, at least we can say we tried once.
*disclaimer: this theory DOES NOT apply in ALL situation. DO NOT use this to justify ALL actions*