Muse

..but it was precious. And it played beautifully once then. Could never finish writing that darn blog on my India trip. It was highly fascinating, definitely an eye-opener. It's as if I walked through India with all its train rides and dust and grime through a dream. I wont say I wanna stay any longer cause I do miss my car, my bed and my lil red pillow.

Many nice people dropping in and out of our journeys. Many smiles, quirks and also many wary faces. Its a trip of education and appreciation. We learned the ways of the unfortunate, shadowed their footsteps, for we could never walk in their shoes unless we lost our own pair. We see poverty in its rawest form. We now feel blessed for the home we are housed in. Despite the comical leaders and parody on the roads, we are far better off than most of them.

A new year with such travesty of new beginnings. There's no such thing as new beginning, I learn. Every beginning I realized is a continuation of the past we left hanging of left abandoned; in haste or in waste. The more we try to run from the infringement of the past, they seems to double their takes and come chasing us back around the next corner. It is sometimes so so hard to let go of what we had grown fond of. Will we ever find that replacement? Will we want that replacement? They spoke of co-dependency. Co-dependency where two parties cling on to each other despite the uneventful ending they knew of. We swagger sometimes. Sometimes we fall, sometimes we get pulled up. But that swagger is all we need to know we are not invincible.

I cant pick out that glass bead from the marbles. They all clink just the same. I want them swirling about but I dont need them the same. So fickle so fickle. When I finally decides whether I want them or not, they are all cracked and grounded to dust. Pity, oh so pity how it all ends.

And I found out another superpower of mine. I have the ability of recalling actual vocabularies even if I merely glance or heard of them only once. Like 'travesty' which I used earlier. I had never used it in my life. Dont even remember where I heard of it. But when I checked the dictionary, it actually is a word? Awesome aint it? (=



Sky is falling. I'm still standing. Tomorrow's coming, and I am going.